April 4th, 2004

I Alone

Random Thoughts after last night's "Spring Forward"

I worked my two twelves and I'm going to do a 7-11 tonight because they are short and I will be duly compensated. Yeehaaaa. Do you ever look at your desk, at your books and other things and say, "Why on earth am I wasting time browsing LJ?" Is it just me? I've got a couple of things to write, soon, but they are mulling... murky emotional things only darkly formed and threatening in my mind. I don't want to acknowledge things like this, but I have to deal and one thing I know is dealing isn't ignoring till it goes away! Though, if that was possible, I would have perfected it by now.

Those of you who have co-workers who read your LJ, did you tell them or did they find out another way? And, if you could choose how it is, would you prefer they know or not? Just curious.

Still waiting for people to spontaneously form a line to befriend me, hasn't happened just yet. Cell phones weren't meant to see this little use, I need to blow the trash out of the carb so it doesn't get sluggish. If you followed that you are sad. I haven't had sleep, what's your excuse?

Get help if you need it. Don't spend years muddling through things when professional help can get you moving in the right direction quickly. You know who you are. (Imagining everyone who reads this pointing to themselves... "Me?")

(Pointing to myself, "Me?")


Have I mentioned lately that my wife is The BEST? Well, she is. And, her new perm looks awesome!

I hate feeling like there are so many things I can't put in my journal. Does anyone else feel that way? I know, that's what private entries are for. That's not what I mean. More later when coherent thought returns (very hopeful statement) on this subject perhaps. It's in there with those dark, mulling things.


This entry is so I can sleep after reading what I've read

Nothing tears my heart out worse than stories like this.

"Laney was a deeply religious woman who home-schooled her children before mental illness drove her on May 10, 2003 to kill Joshua, 8, and Luke, 6 and injure Aaron, now 2, Files said during the trial."

Full story is here, though I would highly recommend not reading any more. In fact, I shouldn't have even showed you this. I wish I hadn't seen it. I always think of what the children must have felt, and what went through their minds as they were betrayed in so evil a way by the person on earth they trusted most.

I am happy my beliefs allow me to think that her punishment will be especially severe. And, I don't mean "life imprisonment" but the agony she will live with, and what will come after.

For those curious, God did speak to this subject in His word.

Matthew 18:6 But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.

Matthew 18:10 Take heed that ye despise not one of these little ones; for I say unto you, That in heaven their angels do always behold the face of my Father which is in heaven.

Matthew 18:14 Even so it is not the will of your Father which is in heaven, that one of these little ones should perish.

Mark 9:42 And whosoever shall offend one of these little ones that believe in me, it is better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and he were cast into the sea.

Luke 17:2 It were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and he cast into the sea, than that he should offend one of these little ones.