May 19th, 2013

I Alone

Day 6 is done, going to bed.

Days 3 and 4 were bad, especially 4. I was convinced that I was suffering raging starvation all day. I was, of course, but that's no excuse. I remembered that I have to do things to keep busy. If I don't think about it, I don't really starve, but if I sit in a chair and think about it...

Today was 262. Hunger resolved mostly on day 5 and today (day 6). Still, I'm 6 days into a 60 day goal. 1/10th. I know now that I have the strength of will to go without food and juice only, it's the resolve. That's where they get you. Therein is the rub. I CAN do this, but I really don't WANT to.

So, the question now is, can I trick myself every day into passing just 60 short days without quitting. Can I focus on the right things mentally and do the right things physically to keep on track? There's something worth sleeping on. And I'll wake up in day 7.