December 19th, 2015


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 Today was the day.  I have been on a weight loss program since July of this year and am making great progress, being nearly 50 pounds down so far.  However, I have been waiting on a number, and it came today.

     Years ago, and I’m not sure exactly when because I failed to write it down, I stepped on a scale somewhere and saw the highest weight I’ve ever attained, to my knowledge.  I weighed 314 pounds.  In looking through my journal, I see I weighed 290 in February of 2002, so I’m sure it was some time after that.  I worked over the years to get weight off, often gaining most of it back. However, I had some success in keeping it off and when I started this program I was 262.2.

     Today on my home scale I was 213.5.  I have lost a HUNDRED POUNDS from my heaviest.  I wanted to share that with all those who have seen me at that weight, and who have seen me struggle and give up struggling.  And to those who are struggling themselves, don’t give up, keep doing work, we can do it.

     I was on medicine for diabetes, hypertension, and high cholesterol.  I was either taking insulin shots before meals or I was being non-compliant by not doing so.  I am now off of all meds except for 20mg Lipitor and I hope to be off that the next time I have labs drawn.

     I am still only eating one healthy meal a day and drinking 4 protein shakes.  I will transition to more food as I get closer to and attain my weight goals.  I go to the gym at least 3 times a week.

     I am living the lifestyle changes it takes to make this kind of progress.  There are no short cuts, there is no easy way.  We are all the gatekeepers for our own food intake and that is the very bottom line.  My saying now as I point to my mouth is, "Only I control what goes in this hole."  Meaning, no matter how much help, love and support you have, it is ALL, EVERY MOMENT, up to you.  No one can do it for you and no one will.

**I made two private entries in August regarding this new start which are now public.  I'm nearing my primary goal (weigh less than 200) and will most likely continue to my secondary goal (180).