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Note to self: no whining, no slacking
Sounds like a British supermarket...
8 aspirations -{}- aspire with me
aspiring2live From: aspiring2live Date: February 26th, 2004 06:04 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks, Sophia. This is very encouraging to me. My first reaction is to reject what you are saying because I am disgusted at my own body, but I'm not really. I'm disgusted at the decisions I made that made my body look this way. I have often told others that the only difference between alcoholism, crack addiction, and obesity is that you can survive without alcohol and crack, you can't survive without food. This usually takes people who have been slim their whole lives by surprise, as they've never seen the similiarities as I've seen them. You can't get slim by going cold turkey off of food. (Though, ironically, turkey helps! ;-)

The underlying truth, better stated, is that I am disgusted with myself, and some of the choices I've made. Self-love is a concept I'm not very familiar with, if at all. But I have come to recognize it as an essential component of a "normal" and "healthy" human life. I'm trying to cash out of the self-loathing, as I had already bought in. I'm trying to love myself now. I'm not sure if I will know when I get there, so don't wait for me to notify you. In fact, if you see it, let me know it's happened so I can tell myself. And Allie, she'll want to know!

BTW, I altered the entry, upon your advice. ;-)
alphapythia From: alphapythia Date: February 26th, 2004 11:54 am (UTC) (Link)
Loving myself was my big breakthrough last year. As soon as I figured out why I needed to- how was easy. I never say anything to myself I wouldn't say to someone I love (if I think it- I say, "cancel" and rephrase.) I don't ask things of myself I wouldn't ask of someone I loved and I treat myself as though I love me. The feeling fell in place pretty quickly after that.

Good luck with it. You're a worthy candidate for self love.
8 aspirations -{}- aspire with me