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Note to self: no whining, no slacking
Some people are just... dynamic
I was talking to Allie yesterday about how recycling had made a brief reappearance to respond to my "farewell" post, or eulogy, as he called it, then deleted his journal altogether. I was distressed over that, I'll admit, because I had plans to go back and read it all. I understand he decided to call LJ quits; we've been over all that, and I didn't expect him to come back and stay in the first place. But I was... dismayed at the deletion. So, Allie said something that helped me deal. Some people more are "dynamic" than others, and the definition of dynamic is "Characterized by continuous change, activity, or progress." She suggested maybe he has to change in such drastic ways in order to be who he is. Hmmm.

Still, it's crap to delete the journal. Perhaps he is waiting till people drop him, or is going to use a different name. Whatever. I'm over the guessing. I've decided to leave him in my friends list with the slash showing. It denotes death to me, sort of. It will remind me not to assign too much importance to LJ or the people I know in it. Not that I had, just that I allowed myself to feel disappointment and distress induced by someone I don't even know. I'm old enough to know better. The armor slipped, lesson learned.

(moving on with conscious effort not to look back)
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From: recycling Date: March 17th, 2004 10:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
Bruce, I'm sorry you've been privy to this rollercoaster of emotional melodrama that is the remains of my Livejournal, but please just bear with me.

I just deleted it because people were getting into arguments about me, and wanted it to blow over for a little while. I like what you said about me being "dynamic", I'd like to believe that..unfortunately I just think I'm surrounded by dynamic events, more than anything. :/

Again, I'm sorry.
aspiring2live From: aspiring2live Date: March 17th, 2004 10:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
Okay, this time I really didn't think you would read this. I vented. I'm not mad or upset with you, your journal is your intellectual property and I have no claim to it. It is my hope you won't delete it permanently because I really did want to read more. I barely know you and I meant what I said in that other post. I'm curious to know more about who you are, who you were, where you came from, where you are trying to go.

I would also have said a lot more than I've said but I was trying to respect your wishes. I haven't posted to your journal, but your post here gave me this opportunity. My LJ is hopefully going to be here for years to come. Should you wish to reach me, wherever you are, you can find me here at my LJ e-mail. I wish you the best, and I don't think it is a secret that I'm hoping you will stay in touch with me.

Shine on, Jay

From: recycling Date: March 17th, 2004 11:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hey, more than likely I'll be lurking around for awhile to come. Reading this post was the reason I decided to grow a pair of balls and reignite this. It'll probably never go back to what it once was, however.

You shine on too, Bruce. Thank you for your input and inspiration over the last few days, you've done more for my spirit than I think you realize.

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